Tormented

Well well, finally chose to use blogging as a tool to help me get a grip on my sanity before I finally go nuts.

Strangely though, tonight is the night where I finally cannot take the mental and emotional torment within me and for a long time, a forgotten feeling wells up within me; that of regret.

Its amazing how the human mind work you know? The ability to consciously (or subconsciously) remember and forget things that we want. Call me an escape artist if you will but I appreciate this mental capability only because I can choose to forget events that are too painful for me, but damn, for no apparent reason, I suddenly recall things that happened 6 years ago (more or less) and I feel a pain so sharp in my heart that I thought my heart was failing.

Although we drifted apart so many years ago and I lied to myself that I will get over you, the truth is that I know I will never get over you. They say being trapped in the past is not going to be good for me and I conceded the point, the fact is that I'm still thinking of you.

Ah well... whats left of me... I just have to find ways to pick myself up and carry on with life; just as you already did six years ago.